Tuesday, 07 December 2010
no such thing.
One year and everything changes.
It’s about time to take some initiative to pen down some tucked away emotional thoughts of mine.
Oh well, this might be the effect of the depressing weather I must say.So. One year.
Some changes. pretty apparent. If you know me, you’ll know.
Some. Only I do.
I often wonder why this life of mine can’t be a little more ordinary instead of a life that falls at the edge of both extremes. Having said that, despite all the nonsensical tormenting yet realistic part of life, no doubt I am blessed.
When you hit rock bottom, it’ll only gets better. Have faith. Keep believing.
-words from a friend when we took a stroll with ducks and birds
and rabbits and chomping away on donuts. simple words yet indispensable.
A serious pain in the arse.
Apparently, Isolation is what I opted for.
I used to stand resolutely by my thought and that no one or nothing should come in between me and my way of living.
Decisions, it bound to make an impact and does the impact only affect you?
Like it or not, it affects others esp ones who cares.
Then again. Right or wrong.
Who knows really.
One can only believe and risk.
So let me. Fall and learn.
I thank you, and to the few significant you(s) that showed me great amount of love.
No matter what, no matter what stands or perspectives you have, I know it’s out of love♥.
Appreciate. I do. so much indeed.
Monday, 10 August 2009
Ahh. Apparently my blog is as dead as my brain these days. There’s too much to update and yet there’s not much that I can recall or relive to write. Almost a year ago, I used to think that this blog of mine will be like a little diary which records my walk of life, the transition that took place when I leave home and went abroad.
Promises of which I will blog of all the new experiences in life are forgotten.
Well, I pretty much just lived this new life without stopping for a moment to reflect on it and undoubtedly to write about it. It all just comes and goes, for both the extremes in life.
My life for just a short span of 6 months took on a rollercoaster ride. Goes high up and fall down right bottom, almost close to hell. Be it good or bad, the experiences really oblige an intense growth to my mind and soul.
I am a person who thinks ahead at all times, for every single thing in life, that’s what I do.
For instance, every outfit in my closet is matched accordingly, habit of wearing whatever and how-ever is unheard of in my world. That’s just one thing. In general, I love making plans, having big ideas because I can never resist the satisfaction ones obtain when things worked out the way as your heart desires. Unfortunately, there are no rules or a sure win situation in this game of life. Nothing necessarily goes the way u wants it to be and in fact, this year I finally learnt, the harsh unpleasant way though. Arrghh life!
As far as I can call to mind, I remember being morose through this new life, to the changes that occurred except when I refreshed my mind and think, I can’t be given the title of being the most ‘cham’ person in the world simply because I am not or so I’d like to believe.
There may be time I wept piteously late at night when disappointment gathers and when loneliness amazingly builds up, nevertheless life still goes on.
What does not kill you makes you stronger!
I scrolled up and read through what I just wrote and it’s rather humorous because I seem really ‘cham’.
Okay fine. Almost every single troubled time of mine is resolved with shower of gifts or off I jet-sets.
So to the very least, I am blessed with the utmost caring boyfriend and friends and family.
You guys are amazing, as always.
Pictures of the whole year round.
The complete albums are all on my Facebook.
More pictures on my Europe trips plus Summer Hols in England and so on coming up Soon!
I am a lousy blogger and I know that.
Right now, this lousy blogger needs her beauty sleep for her shopping trip tomorrow to Livingston.
And just so you know, yours truly will be back in Msia in a matter of 2weeks.
Monday, 11 May 2009
When one door closes, another one open.
It seems plausible to me at first but I have to say that it is absolutely true now. I lost a friend last year due to some absurd mentality of a girl, then again now I am blessed with a bunch of ridiculously nice friends. Friends that I can above all trust or simply spend 3 to 4 hours sitting in a very nice English café to talk, really talk. I have to unashamedly conclude that it is really a stupid stupid idea to de-friend me due to jealousy or anything absurd because I am or can be such a good friend. Lolz.
Anyway, that’s not the point, the point is, I am ecstatic over the fact that I can finally open up myself again to people whom I called friend and live this part of life with very much laughter.
Letting things be the way it is, is the way to go.
Well, I am aware of my irregular updates which may prompted some of my friends to believe that I’m actually dead.
No I am not, I am really busy instead.
Good news, I just handed in my portfolio(A1 hand drawn & Digital Portfolio okkaayy!)
Also, my goddamn history paper is finally O.V.E.R. Wooohooo!
I have in fact another construction paper coming up which is pretty much a bad news but well, a short break wouldn’t do much harm. Hee.
Yesterday, I woke up with a plan for some retail therapy because it is imperative for a girl to shop after undergoing a huge amount of stress, right? Of course, summer is approaching nonetheless, bikinis sandals summerly clothes? That’s a very good reason ey?
I SHOPPED the entire weekends!
& MANY MORE~!♥
In just a matter of 4 weeks, I’ll be very much be in like an amazing race or sth because I will be going on trips to BARCELONA, ITALY(ROME MILAN VENICE), AMSTERDAM, PARIS, all in one go.
I am keeping my fingers crossed for a fabulous time with extravagant shopping in Paris and Italy, sight-seeing of all the cutesy stuffs in Amsterdam and being in architectural paradise in Barcelona to sketch n render-filling up my travel log sketchbook in general n if possible, oh Antonio Gaudi I love!, plus sun bathing(no I’m totally kidding) at beaches in Barcelona.
(swine flu I BEG OF U plz F.off!)
Friday, 06 March 2009
Finally, the torture is over!
Wow Le Corbusier with his theories left me feeling muzzy for three consecutive days already. After reading through a few books of his, I still do not seem to hold any fascination towards his theories. Thanked goodness it’s over by now.
believe it or not,i actually FINISHED reading all of these.A-ma-zing~!
These books do make me a lot smarter, but it certainly does not make me any happier.
Instead, magazines with pretty girls like this did a great job, okay at least for today.
well well well.
AD1 project is next in line, honestly, I am in eager anticipation to get my hands started on my final model.
(i reckon its gonna b a good one♥)
Model making and technical drawings are so my cup of tea. Essay or exams on the other hand, are sth that practically shortens my life span. Hah.
Enough with the tedious talk about work.
On the lighter note..
I was such a happy kid yesterday, received a parcel of gifts from the boyfriend who took pity on his stressed out girlfriend. How very sweet of him.
*a new pair of killer boots and some other junks* teehee.
one of my everyday style.
polyvore is pretty fun.♥
my next buy~!
thats about it for now.
bk to work!
Tuesday, 24 February 2009
I can almost see it.
That dream I'm dreamin
But there's a voice inside my head saying you'll never reach it.
Every step I'm taking.
Every move I make feels
Lost with no direction.
My faith is shakin.
But I,I gotta keep tryin.
Gotta keep my head held high.
There's always gonna be another mountain.
I'm always gonna wanna make it move.
Always gonna be an uphill battle
Sometimes I'm gonna have to lose.
Ain't about how fast I get there.
Ain't about what's waitin on the other side.
It's the climb.
The struggles I'm facing.
The chances I'm taking.
Sometimes might knock me down but
No I'm not breaking.
I may not know it but these are the moments that
I'm gonna remember most, yeah.
Just gotta keep going.
And I, I gotta be strong.
Just keep pushing on♥
KEEP YOUR FAITH.
Friday, 20 February 2009
It has been a week since I arrived back in the Uk, and gosh 2 weeks of works that I irresponsibly ignored for the self declared holidays I had are coming too hard on my poor soul. Kinda regret I must say, but well, let’s not complain and proceed on the substantial solution to it, all work no play my dear self.
However, you don’t need a rocket scientist to figure out truth where its so much easier said than done.
And the thing is, I am no longer the lifeless architecture student I used to be, so many invites to events/parties all over Uk and travelling plans and gatherings and oh just so much of everything coincided with my tower high works- slack a lil, no? Yes, NO I cant.
Plodder I am not, I can’t plod through my work, now that is stress!
How can one balance all these, tell me.
F*king wished I don’t have to stay grounded for 3 more weeks to come. Still in my slothful state. Boo!
Okay not really, ill b out of town next weekend for a weekend getaway, whisking off to some beautiful island.
Jet setting i love! oh hell my burned pocket.
*16.02.09-first day of uni after 2 weeks break*
Anyway, lets talk about my self-declared hols bk in Msia. Bear with me because I had splendid good times indeed, what a joy. So much catching ups with decade long friends, thus so much time was dedicated to endless reminiscence of our silly old days.
When u’re all grown up and away, memories are to be cherish, all and all that u looked back and laugh about. I perceived naivety and childishness a privilege, as u grow older, basically these sort of privileges are striped off u due to the increasing responsibilities and of coz, your plan for the future, your undertakings. damn! correct or not? There’s no slot visible for me to be a bonehead at all, doing boneheaded stuffs. 'You got to be responsible.' –that’s what I tend to hear all the time. Sigh!
Having said that, the current phase I am going through right now are undeniably one of the best time in my life- major major good times. Family, my ever-sturdy backbone grants me the freedom to explore the world, to reach out for my dream and nevertheless the liberty to have quite a bit of fun in the process. Friends for years, friends I grew up with proved to be loyal and ever so supportive in everything I do, its not easy to find even just one of such friend, however, I had a few so what am I to say really? love♥.
New developing friendships, new people I met are so charming in many ways, where I find it difficult to articulate properly. In general, they are lovely smart successful bright and fun, I absolutely relish in getting to know these ppl more.
It’s so good to know I have been meeting just the right people. ♥
Im in a good place now.
cheers to that~!
Saturday, 24 January 2009
Its about time for me to resume blogging after a complete one month hiatus. There are so many things which occupy my time and also my heart and mind, therefore blogging is like the last thing I would get my hands on. To be honest, I am even considering deleting this blog altogether. Well, we’ll see.
Anyway, I should really be busy working on my model and technical drawings right now. Hence, a quick update.
Things I did for the past 1 month:
- Spent 2 weeks in Msia with family, was fun and all I did was sitting bk and relaxing all the time. I did absolutely nth productive or fruitful. I have to admit I am struggling a tad bit on my work, its hard to pick up what I left you see. However, I am no stranger to a last minute person so what’s the big deal? Lolz.
- After so long of having the idea of picnicking in the park in which I perceived to be romantic and sweet, alas, I went, only to result with an experience that minus the sweet picnicking part and replaced by some serious headache when I returned home. This, thanks to the winter time. Of coz, I am not a fool. I went there mainly for my most recent project- designing a space to retreat.
All those ducks, pigeons, and squirrels are so interesting to watch. The sound of the babbling brooks, plus the winds are unbelievably soothing. Retreat? Ohyes.♥
Moving on, what else?
- Oh this will come by no surprise at all, well, I shopped, A LOT. I used the total of 30kg of my luggage stuffing 90% of clothes and accessories. What a fun experience shopping in Msia and right now, these are so tempting.
Do u know Burberry or LV or whatever brands of such are cheaper here, even with the currency difference?
So my dear friends, anything for u? (Pay yourself of coz lolz)
I guess that’s about it.
I haven’t been doing enough work at all.
Before I go, I would like to make a short announcement to all my friends back in Msia.
♥ ♥ ♥
I WILL BE HOME AGAIN ON CNY FOR ANOTHER 2 WEEKS.
Wtf I know.
Sunday, 28 December 2008
It’s Boxing Day sales yesterday.
Illness plus plain laziness of mine has kept myself at home for some time now. However with such temptation came along, my heart cant help but to get distracted and not to mention, turned uber excited, fingers itchy and all so not surprisingly I brought my lazy ass out.
Spent 6 hours straight walking on the street, in and out of the shops, then back with outcome that wasn’t too shabby at all.
Boxing Day sales are amazing.
It is hard to believe the financial crisis happening in the world right now. Because People still shop as if there’s no tmr.
Nevertheless, that, I am excluded, I am proud to say that I am in better control of my habit these days. Somehow, moments to think twice before buying is set and instilled well in me. So no worries. I shop well and definitely right.
Half the stuffs(scarfs accessories and whatnots) I bought at very very reasonable price.
I reckon more shopping will be done bk in Msia, hence, y spend so much in Pounds right.
I cannot wait to be home. Got to start packing now.
Will shop again tmr, why?, cause I totally forgot about souvenirs. Wtf
See you all back in Msia~!
Tuesday, 23 December 2008
Today my boyfriend and I just made a shout out and knew that’s it, let’s go home, for real. F*ck the air ticket (the pricy price). In conclusion, we did what we believe we should, and so yes, we will be leaving soon right before new year to be home with family.
Life is tough but as long as family members are all well and together, let's cheers.
I couldn’t care less about anything else.
Im going home….~!!!!♥
Today I smiled and took a great load of pictures, at home.
My home here in Edinburgh♥
My pathetic Christmas tree..lolz*
My fat angle.haha
i do cook okay.its fun ~
anyway, thats about it i guess.
time to cuddled up with my boyfriend for movies.
Saturday, 13 December 2008
My exam went miraculously…..
BAD, and horrible and terrible, well, just darn it bad.
Seriously I am not gonna elaborate on the details.
But with the word miraculous that I used, swear to god, it is absolutely appropriate.
Well, I am not suggesting that I am smart so I am able to do extremely well but damn I am definitely not thattt stupid.
Oh well, lets cut the crap. I spent a day dealing with my emotion, so I won jump back into the black hole right now.
Yesterday I was offered to be paid for my photographs taken. LOL. Yes, I will be one of the girls in the University of Edinburgh’s prospectus, probably 2009’s. It is so funny because it was such a quick photoshoot and required me doing basically nth at all. Not to mention, the pay is sooo good.
However, the pay did not make it to my bank account. Instead, it was put into a better use for consoling my mind filled with disappointments and broken hope, just the consolidation I need.
I don’t know what is the method u guys opt for some tension breaking mission (I don’t care) but for me, it got to be getting my hands on beautiful things such as below.
Stuffs I bought online.
No my boyfriend cannot find out.. shhh..
I just realized everything I got are all black.
Anyway, good buy, of coz all these exceeded my pay but whatever, I feel good now.
till next time~